I went to the wedding of my high school prom date last night. It was such a lovely evening and I had the pleasure of seeing friends that were such an integral part of my past that I haven’t seen for over 10 years. Some I haven’t seen since high school. I of course started tearing when Jed broke the glass and the clapping and Mazel Tovs began. He looked so happy and his lovely wife looked so stunning. I told him he won the lottery with nailing that babe!

I told my old friend Marc about the TV show. Marc and I have known each other since were 11 years old and were pretty tight in High School. We all had alot of fun together. Anyway, like I said, I haven’t seen him since high school. His take on the show was that it was beyond perfect. He and his wife have been together for 10 years and were even together in high school. He looked at it as my chances for love and a successful marriage were just as great as his. He also mentioned that remembering my boyfriends I do have pretty off taste in men and would most likely be better with others choosing for me! (thanks Marc!)

I feel good about the show again. I was thinking that they were never going to find someone for me, and that I’m actually too chicken to be married! I mean, can I be a wife? Can I? If I have never been a great girlfriend, than what makes me think I can be a wife? Would I want to marry me? I mean, Im cute, fun, a great cook, a great friend… but I never put tops back on things, I’m messy, I wont clean (yes, I have a cleaning woman) and I can get pretty reclusive. I mean, I know I can be a wife… I guess its just a new way of thinking about things and really talking. I’m really good at not talking -