I wrote this on Dec 28th – never posted?

Several years ago – like 6 – I was in India practicing yoga down south with a whole bunch of other people feeling free and embracing the culture as much as we could. I embraced over-sized clothes that hid my body, because at the time, you had to be modest in that town. I also embraced several foods that I hadn’t eaten in years and  know now that I am intolerant of. I packed on the pounds and ignored it. I didn’t look at a full length mirror for 4 months and I was happy to eat freely, but missing my body. I was happy until I had to  put on a bikini in Goa next to my friend Kathy, skinny, tall, blond and SO not Jewish.

I like to think that I can hide.  In my new and beautiful apartment I have a mediocre full length mirrior and I have chosen to not weigh myself for some time now. I went shopping today and saw what has been hiding underneith all of these black stretchy winter clothes that I have been wearing for the past few weeks. I started laughing, which for me is big progress….