Well, It’s been so long since I have last posted… and so much has happened. Ups and down, twists and turns. On the upside, my eating has hit a place of neutral. I eat breakfast most of the time and look forward to it. My cravings, binges and freak outs have subsided for 2 whole weeks. And, I lost weight! I’m eating more often, but I lost weight? Ha! My shrink is fast blowing holes in all of my theories! I think I have a ways to go, but I can see that I am pretty close. Beautiful place to be.

And on the man/husband/tv show front… Its seems that they have pushed the production back – AGAIN. The matchmaking weekend was to be this coming weekend. I was going to meet my husband to be and really dive into my wedding plans. However, TV time and real time seems to be completely different animals. So here I am, pretty much in limbo. They haven’t set a new date for matchmaking weekend, so we haven’t set a date for the wedding. Not that setting dates mean anything in their world. What upsets me the most about this is that I really want to get on with my life, meet that guy, get to know him, fall in love, have a kid and then see whats next – together. But I feel as if I am back where I was when this whole wild ride started – but now I am a year older, however a lot wiser and a lot more grounded. I am not sure where this wisdom and grounding is coming from, but I have to go wit it and stay in that place. Limbo is a horrid place to be whereas having ones feet on the ground, head in the sky… it’s OK – I know nothing is wrong. I think I just quoted my favorite song – “this must be the place” by the Talking heads. Interesting… guess I have to think about that?